rachel212
09-19-2005, 04:33 PM
I started crying at 10am yesterday, and I haven't been able to stop.
I really just don't know what to do. I don't expect you to respond to this, im really just writing it so that I can understand what happened. Yesterday was the worst day of my entire life. I lost my best friend. I was supposed to go to a parade, and as we were driving down our driveway my dog was run over. We thought we hit a bump in the road, but then my dad realized it was my Eddie. He was on his side on my driveway bleeding out his mouth and he didn't know what was happening. There was so much pain and confusion in his eyes. His father tried to lick the blood away. I told God I would do anything if he would just let him live. We put him in our truck and sped to the emergency animal hospital. I've never seen so much blood in my entire life. It was all coming out of his mouth. I held him in my arms and told him I loved him and that he would be okay. I stroked his head the entire way there. There was just so much blood. Then suddenly he went limp, there was no breathing sounds and his body was like that of a rag doll. I tried to make him start breathing again, my dad told me to give him CPR. Nothing was helping. We finally got to the hospital and they said that he died. They told me I kept him alive the way there, but his organs were crushed and there was too much internal bleeding. He was only a year old.
Ive never had many friends, but Eddie was my friend. He never did anything bad, the worst thing he did was chew on my slipper. It's a horrible thing to say, but he was my favorite dog. I held him in my arms the day he was born, one year four months and three days ago, and i held him in my arms when he died, one day and eight hours ago. I don't really know what I'm supposed to do without him. Part of me expects him to come into my room and lie under my desk. But the other part knows that I just buried him. I gave him his toys, my bedsheet, some flowers, and a coin. I don't know when I'm going to be able to feel better again. I can't go anywhere without thinking about him. He was so soft and so sweet. He never growled. I don't know if his father understands. He saw the body and watched us bury him, but I don't know if he understands. I was supposed to take care of his son and i failed him. I just hope that Eddie had a happy life. He didn't deserve that much pain. I wish he was still here with me. I wish i couldn't feel anything. I don't know if i'm going to be in school tomorrow, but if anybody asks, that's why. I'm sorry you have to read this, but I don't really know who else I should tell. I never knew anything could hurt this much. I loved him so much. I used to worry about how he would deal when I went to college, but now I guess I don't have to worry anymore.
I really just don't know what to do. I don't expect you to respond to this, im really just writing it so that I can understand what happened. Yesterday was the worst day of my entire life. I lost my best friend. I was supposed to go to a parade, and as we were driving down our driveway my dog was run over. We thought we hit a bump in the road, but then my dad realized it was my Eddie. He was on his side on my driveway bleeding out his mouth and he didn't know what was happening. There was so much pain and confusion in his eyes. His father tried to lick the blood away. I told God I would do anything if he would just let him live. We put him in our truck and sped to the emergency animal hospital. I've never seen so much blood in my entire life. It was all coming out of his mouth. I held him in my arms and told him I loved him and that he would be okay. I stroked his head the entire way there. There was just so much blood. Then suddenly he went limp, there was no breathing sounds and his body was like that of a rag doll. I tried to make him start breathing again, my dad told me to give him CPR. Nothing was helping. We finally got to the hospital and they said that he died. They told me I kept him alive the way there, but his organs were crushed and there was too much internal bleeding. He was only a year old.
Ive never had many friends, but Eddie was my friend. He never did anything bad, the worst thing he did was chew on my slipper. It's a horrible thing to say, but he was my favorite dog. I held him in my arms the day he was born, one year four months and three days ago, and i held him in my arms when he died, one day and eight hours ago. I don't really know what I'm supposed to do without him. Part of me expects him to come into my room and lie under my desk. But the other part knows that I just buried him. I gave him his toys, my bedsheet, some flowers, and a coin. I don't know when I'm going to be able to feel better again. I can't go anywhere without thinking about him. He was so soft and so sweet. He never growled. I don't know if his father understands. He saw the body and watched us bury him, but I don't know if he understands. I was supposed to take care of his son and i failed him. I just hope that Eddie had a happy life. He didn't deserve that much pain. I wish he was still here with me. I wish i couldn't feel anything. I don't know if i'm going to be in school tomorrow, but if anybody asks, that's why. I'm sorry you have to read this, but I don't really know who else I should tell. I never knew anything could hurt this much. I loved him so much. I used to worry about how he would deal when I went to college, but now I guess I don't have to worry anymore.